ashleymeyer

Hey guys!  Sorry I haven’t been blogging much.  It is getting harder and harder to squeeze in BS time while I am at work.  I am trying, but I have been busy!  I am doing well on my journey here… I have only lost one pound, but I am getting into the habbit of exercise.  I have been walking through my neighborhood which is very “hilly” so I can feel the burn!  It has been great and I feel much better for doing it. 

I did find out that I have borderline high blood pressure.  My doctor has me watching my sodium intake and drinking more water than I normally do…which is a lot anyway.  I go back next week to check it again, so hopefully I am better.  I would hate to be on meds for my blood pressure at age 24!  It helps as motivation to lose this weight though.  Have a great Wednesday!

Give me the strength to NOT partake in the Root Beer Floats I am serving today, and PLEASE OH PLEASE make the snack bar in my office stop taunting me!  Thank you.

Your friend,

Ashley

:)  Need some will power today ladies!  The muffins are CALLING MY NAME!!!

I hate it sometimes!  I am so sad and down today, and I have NO REASON to be!  I woke up feeling okay and was happy with myself for getting in a walk last night, but then, I get to work, and the sadness sets in.  I am not sure what caused it or where it came from.  The only thing I can think is hormones… being a girl! I just want to crawl and hide today.  I am taking everything personally.  I have been on and off fighting with a friend of mine lately.  Maybe that is what has done it. I don’t know.  Any body have any ideas how to fight the overwhelming feeling of oncoming tears?!?!  I need a good laugh and a margarita!

Anyway, off my soap box for a bit.  I was doing so great yesterday, then, the temptation set it.  I had a slice of pizza AND an ice cream sundae.  I was so mad at myself for giving in!  I ended up having tomato and cucumber slices for dinner because I didn’t want to go over my calorie intake by anymore!  After dinner, I took a walk for 30 minutes.  That was nice.  Relxed my body and my head!  I like the times where I don’t think about anything.  My head is constantly go go go 24/7!  I think all the time about everything.  Sometimes I wish there was an on and off switch for it! Ha ha. 

Okay, I am off to pretend to work for a bit. 

Hey friends!  Let me just tell you! I had a CRAZY weekend!  Well, I guess crazy is not the correct word, but busy and exhausting sure fit!  All day Saturday, my husband and I spring cleaned.  I mean CLEANED!  We did everything.  Then we mowed the lawn.  We didn’t stop for 6 hours!  No lie!  I burned some major calories that day!  Anyway, at about 9pm, we got in bed to watch the Curious Case of Benjamin Button…very good movie.  He fell asleep, but I was restless.  So after that, I turned on a tv movie, and about 1:45 am decided to try to sleep…NOPE! My phone rang at 1:50… my mom telling me my sister’s water had broken and we needed to get to the hospital.  My mom and I are her birthing coaches.  So, off I went.  My mother and I stayed awake, waiting on my sister’s every need until 1:30 pm on Sunday!  Then, we found out a cousin of mine was in a near fatal accident.  We spent the next several hours on the phone trying to find out his condition ( he lives in another state, couldn’t get to him)  He is in critical condition, but will survive.  Anyway, so I didn’t get any exercise in after my house cleaning adventure, and I didn’t care about eating healthy either.  I slept in yesterday and came to work late, but man, I was still a zombie.  I feel better today and hope to get some sort of exercise in.  I hope you all have a great day!

Man am I glad it is FRIDAY!  I am ready to get out of the work place for a bit!  These past few weeks have been go go go, and the past three days have been a complete stall!  I have done nothing but sit here for hours upon hours!  I am still working on quitting smoking, but I am not attempting cold turkey.  I am not technically smoking less yet, but I am working towards that.  I am going to limit myself to three a day.  If that works, I will drop to two a day, then one, then NONE!  Hopefully this works for me!  Other than push ups here and there, I haven’t been exercising.  I keep making excueses for myself not to do soemthing… I really need to get out of that habbit.  My eating habbits are okay.  I say okay, because my tight budget prohibits me from eating completely healthy sometimes.  I LOVE fresh veggies, but they add up really quick in the shopping cart.  I eat well, but sometimes lately I have spaghetti or a sandwich when normally  I eat a salad or something.   I know that portion control is key when eating things like pasta, so I think that keeps me at my maintain as opposed to a gain. 

Anyway, enough rambling!  Have a nice weekend all!

Happy Thursday all!  I don’t know about the rest of you, but I am ready for the weekend!  This week has drug on and on!  I weighed in this morning.  I am happy for no gain!  I am stuck at 197.  I am happy with it for now though.  At least I am not where I was in the beginning!  I did some push ups the night before last, and OUCH!  My arms and chest are killing me!  I had a hard time fixing my hair this morning!  I had no idea that push ups were so killer! LOL  I am going to do some more tonight, and I know eventually the pain will go away.  I was once told that if it doesn’t hurt, I am not doing it right, so I guess the pain is a good sign? 

Now, for the smoking thing.  I don’t think I am ready to quit.  I didn’t make it last night.  I gave in and bought a pack of cigarettes.  I just can’t quit cold turkey.  I don’t think I can concentrate on eating healthy, exercising, and quitting smoking right now.  I think by trying to do all three, I am setting myself up to fail.. then again, I may just be giving myself an out here… I am going to severely cut back on how much I smoke.  My husband and I decided that we only need two a day while at work, and then one for at home after work.  Once we get used to that, maybe it won’t be so hard to just stop all together??? 

 I want a new eating approach.  I always eat the same things and, I think that is what throws me off track.  I get bored.  I am going grocery shopping tonight, so if anyone has any ideas for a new recipe or something, toss them my way!  I need a change! LOL 

Have a great day everyone!

I know this is a weight loss site, and I keep bitching about this smoking thing, but man!  I cannot quit thinking about cigarettes!  I always thought that I could quit whenever I wanted!  I didn’t realize how truly dependant I am on those stupid tar sticks!  Anyway, I bummed another after lunch… so, that makes two so far today… I am going to attempt the non smoking gum… or patches… I will try not to continue to gripe about this!!!

I am on day one… day one of a journey that needs to be made!  I have been on my weightloss  journey for several months now, and I keep yo-yo’ing… I go down, I go up, I go up, I go down… I will get the hang of it sooner or later!  But today, I am officially a “non-smoker”  Well, not officially.  I had to bum one already just to get it off my mind… it is like someone telling me not to look… what do I do?? Look of course!  When I tell myself, “don’t eat that cupcake”…what do I do?  Think about that damn cupcake for what seems like eternity… I can usually muster up enough will power to JUST SAY NO! lol… and that is what I have to do with the smoking.  I am feeling okay right now, but like I said, I bummed.  I usually have one in the morning about 8, one after lunch, and several throughout the afternoon.  When I am stressed or overwhelmed though, the amount I smoke is beyond ridiculous!  I have to quit.  I need to.  I calculated how much money my husband and I spend on tobacco alone throughout the course of a month… 285.70!  285.70! That is A LOT of freaking money!   No wonder I am always broke!  He is on this journey as well, but he is still dipping… it is a red neck thing I guess! LOL  I hope I make it through this day… I will see how it goes and maybe get some nicotine patches or gum tomorrow!  Have a great Wednesday all you in BS land!  Hugs!

I was looking through my journal… the one I keep in my purse to keep up with my thougths and feelings and it has also become my food journal!  Well, I have kept a journal for quite some time, and I never have gone back and read what I had written.  I did today.  On January 28, I wrote how I was feeling fat and blah blah blah and that I had weighed at my grandmothers house and was 225!  This is good news because that means I have lost 28 pounds since then, and that makes me feel great! I kept thinking, man, for as long as I have been at this, I haven’t lost much weight, but I have almost lost 30 pounds!  That makes me extremely happy!  I just wanted to share that with you all!  I am ready to get my fitness challenge on tonight April!  I am going to walk my ass off!  Well, we can all dream right?!?

It has been a while since my last blog.  I am not sure why, but I haven’t been blogging as much.  I still check in and read other’s blogs, but for some reason, I haven’t had anything to say in return.  But, I figure I would give an update today.  My surgery “wound” is just about healed.  I have to go back in for a second round, but luckily, there is no deadline for when I have to do it.  I am going to try to hold off for a little bit so that I can financially prepare to miss work for two weeks!  I think the infection I had was preventing me from losing.  I haven’t lost a lot, but without really trying, I lost 5 pounds and have kept it off since the surgery… and really, I am not doing my best at eating. Already today, I have had oatmeal, two cups of coffee, a little debbie snack cake, and spaghetti for lunch…  all not horrible, but not great compared to my normal tuna, salad, eggs, cheese etc.  Is it possible to eat TOO MANY veggies??? I have limited my veggie intake too, and that may have contributed to the weight loss.  I just don’t know! Anyone have any ideas on that?  I need some advice too on how to stay on track.  I am going to do soemthing I really need help with!  I need support and I need tips on how to stay on track while I QUIT SMOKING!!!  I have attempted to quit several times, and I always fail.  I either start eating non stop and gain weight, which makes me give up, or I get super stressed and need my vice.  I need a new vice and I need something to keep my mind off smoking.  Any advice anyone???  I really would like to hear from people on what they have done or seen others do.  I thought about the patch, but wonder if it really helps???  Gotta get to work, but would love any help people have!